here we go.

"My life story"
I grew up in a small town of spring valley wisconsin, with a little sister. I grew up with a guy in my life that expects to be called dad. He wasnt there for me. He's what most call a sperm donor. I call him "the guy that got my mom knocked up." He cheated on my mother.. way to much. He and my mother divorced, and went their seperate ways when i was just 7. For a few years, i bounced back and forth between the two of them You know the typical child of divorced parents. At some point along the path, my mother met keith. Keith then became my father. When is say dad..he is who im talking about..He and my mother married when i was like.. 11. When i was 12, carter came along. My mom suffered from PPD. My dad worked alot, so I became the caregiver for Carter when he was an infant. It made me grow up FAST. Come middle school.. My grades started slipping.. and I cared less and less about..well..everything. I became suicidal. I cut. Attempted to end it all a total of 36 times. I lost my virginity at 14 goin into the 9th grade.. shortly before i met mike. Through out that year, i gained friends, and i lost friends. Had boyfriends, lost boyfriends. slept with 3 guys..came back to mike. we dated for a year [in 2007]. I became pregnant.. Miscarried. He decided he wanted child. I agreed, as long as he didnt leave me. He swore he would. We tried for caden, and got him on our first try. Mike left me before I was 3 months pregnant. Mike denied caden up until the day he was born, August 2nd, 2008. Two weeks into cadens life Mike and i got back together. Two months later.. Mike left me ..yet again.. Because he didnt think caden was his. Shortly after i found out i was pregnant again.. Ectopic pregnancy, in which i lost. Yet again, two months later Mike and i were back together [dec 08]. Only to break up yet again.. just a month later. At this point, i had begun going to the mall of america, and club nitro quite frequently, with GeriJean. She and I had come across Leon. The guy that changed my whole world in just a small time. Leon and I had our thing, i wont lie.. i loved him. But never told him. For some ungodly reason i let mike talk me into going back to him.. After all i thought it was best for leon to focus on school instead of me. Mike asked me to marry him feb 14th.. i told him i didnt want to get married. but i would take the ring as a promise that some day he will be the man i want. fast forward to june 2009. We had moved from Downing, to De Pere. Best move i have EVER made in my life! June 20th,.. we made a trip back to mikes moms for his grad party.. found out his sister got married without telling him. He then talked me into marrying him the 4th of july. Again for caden i thought it would be right. But he knew how i really felt. Ended up getting pregnant with brayleigh the night we got married. two weeks later.. mike left me.. ohh what a shock? i then met james.. the green bay version of leon. If you knew how i really felt about leon you would understand how i felt about james. celebrated cadens first birthday aug 2nd 2009. mike ended up coming back for just a few weeks, and left again.. came back in oct shortly before i found out what brayleigh was.. he left.. yet again.. in november. at that point i said fuck it.. and james and i got together..officially. Mike slept with heather. Mike got heather pregnant. James stepped up for what mike wasnt doing. James claimed the kiddos as his. James made me pretty friggen happy.. but all good things come to an end. from nov-jan i was with him.. he left..and ofcourse.. mike was jealous.. nd i took him back.. i had brayleigh feb 22nd 2010. mike moved back in when brayleigh was 3 weeks old..But things werent the same, he became verbally abusive.. i didnt love him.. and realized i never really did.. i started avoiding him.. at all cost.. for months actually.. come july james had come back into my life. This was my escape from mike. But.. this is also when mike became PHYSICALLY abusive. That was the final straw. Mike made the mistake of busting my lip open.. infront of james.. i kicked mike out..james about beat the shit out of mike. When he was finally gone.. thats when my eyes really opened to what i wanetd. I started seeing whoever i wanted.. when ever i wanted. hung out with my friends and my kiddos frequently.. finally just got to be ME. Something i had been longing for. i ended up pregnant by james..while on birthcontrol. i miscarried that baby when i had my birthcontrol removed. and immediatly got pregnant again in september. which miscarried just days after i found out. few weeks later.. met trevor.. dated trevor.. trevor left me for his ex. his ex and him broke up 2 weeks later.. he came back to me. and we broke up 2 weeks after that so he could be with his current flame. during that time i had come into contact with the girl he me for the first time.. she and i became best friend instantly.. she is my becca<3 i loves her to pieces.... thats my life. its complicated. and oddly enough.. i didnt even touch base with how i dont talk to my biological fathers family, how keith is very ill.. there is much more to is.. but this is basic... its complicated.. and i expect no one to understand it.